Is It Selfish…….


….to want a day–even two–without my parents?

Is it selfish because they didn’t have that luxury when we were kids?

A weekend is all I want. I am overloaded.

Trying to manage dad’s release to hospice care back home, and there are so many questions.

I was short with my mom on the phone, and then realized that she is losing her partner of 56 years, the only man she’s ever been with.

What right do I have to be short with her?

Yet the questions overwhelm me; as well as I’m managing things, as at peace as I am.

I need a break.

I’m thankful that my sister has stepped up and for the past several weeks has been a partner. I’m wary about how long it will last, but I am accepting of it and embrace it.

But I need a break.

I’m flying back down next Friday.

I’m hoping dad will be home and that they will be together.

We have a holiday meal planned at my sister’s house, the logistics of which are TBD.

~ by Butch on September 9, 2012.

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